KISS OF CHAOS

I’m lost…

But I desire to be found

Not by anybody else, but by and for myself so I can take the wheel and control what nobody else can do for me


Me, myself, and I

I am the key to unlocking a life with no bars, no chains and no restrictions

Lost…

Because I think I know what I want and just when I’m about to go after it I change my mind

Yea…I do that all the time

Maybe because my standards have escalated, or the thought of something bigger and better throw me off track

I’m indecisive…

Confused and unamused by what society says SHOULD be and what I know COULD be


And then there’s …what really IS

Oh…the possibilities

The possibilities of breaking the social norms and redefining societies standards of what’s acceptable and unacceptable.

I’m tired….


My thoughts have me exhausted because I can’t wrap my finger around the difference between possibility and destiny


The things that are suppose to happen or will happen and the many things that get in the way

And half the time …I guess I’m getting in the way of myself


But, I’m blessed…

Blessed because right when everything seems like it isn’t making sense, or it’s falling apart, I’m able to put the pieces together

And that’s what makes me complete…

TRUST is important within any relationship…whether that relationship exists between family, your friends, or your significant other. It’s only natural that we desire an untainted bond between the people we care about. Trust builds solid foundations and roots deep into the reason we respect or care about that person in the first place. Because when you’re lied to or that trust is broken for whatever reason, it’s hard to build it back up again…and if you decide to do so, it’s more than likely the foundation that use to stand strong is now on unstable ground. Sure, it can get back to where it was initially and hopefully exceed that, but it takes time and energy from both ends. So what happens when you meet someone new and they have a clean slate? No judgments or opinions… Do you trust them until they give you a reason not to? Or do you work to build that bond? I think nowadays it’s hard to say. So many people have ulterior motives and have become experts at manipulation. Some people will use you until you served them their purpose or until they have reached the self gratification they were seeking. People will “act” like your friend just to be associated with you, men will sell women dreams with no intent of making them come true, and so many woman have become obsessed with material things, they will take advantage of a man like its their job.

So here comes in the point of meeting someone new. How do you separate those who are truely interested in everything that embodies the person you are vs those who are purely interested in what you do or have? Those who see past the surface into the soul, versus those who only see the surface, but make it seem as if they’re interested in more. For me…I’ve learned to keep my circles small and let very few people into my life. I cherish the relationships I have and keep those sacred, because one of the best feelings is to truly believe someone with full conviction, therefore believing everything they stand for as well. Also, I believe in the laws of attraction…good energy attracts good energy and vise versa. But initially…you never know. So I guess that’s when you take that leap of faith to go ahead and take everything for truth, or simply walk away. I know I’m vulnerable to the lies and manipulations of others simply because it’s in my nature to see the good in everyone and be blinded by the bad. I have to pinch myself and snap into the reality of the world we live in. But beside every strong man there’s a strong woman. Beside every friend, stands their better half. And the bond of family reaches levels of unconditional love. The people that are in your life are there for a reason. I don’t believe in coincidence….people will walk into your life, walk out of your life or STAY in your life based of what their purpose was in your journey. With that being said, TRUST is essential. With any foundation you’re lying down you have to have full confidence that your partner (friend, family, lover) is committed just as much as you are. Through your worst days and your best days, at your peaks and the day when you might reach rock bottom. Because the person who will walk away when things aren’t going their way maybe never had your best interest at hand in the first place.

XOXO

     Sometimes I sit back and think to myself… if I was to combine all the time I spend on social networking websites (Twitter, Facebook etc) or the other times I am browsing gossip/ blog sites, how much time am I really wasting? Typically I would never consider this “wasting time” because it’s my form of entertainment, but once I take these networks out of my schedule, I see it differently. To think I wake up and check my twitter, browse my timeline and tweet throughout the day, and even tweet as I am falling asleep, I have to ask myself what am I really gaining from all of this?  Is it pure entertainment, a new way to communicate, an outlet for me to be nosey, or is this more of a distraction?  In reality, although some of the above may be true… I think social networking itself has become a huge distraction from people being able to focus on “self” and build real relationships.  For two weeks I decided to take time to focus on myself and stay away from all social networking sites and gossip/ blog sites.  The task was surprisingly not as difficult as I thought it would be, but considering I uninstalled all the tempting apps from my phone this may have made it a little easier on me.

     So what did I gain from all of this…? The answer is quite simple, time to focus on my passions, my purpose and myself.   So often we’re so worried about everyone else that we let ourselves get distracted in a world that’s moving extremely fast.  We fail to realize that sometimes we need to stop moving with the fast pace of society and slow down.  A world that has become so crowded with technology the very essence of real communication has become lost.  And although these new ways of connecting with one another have created outlets of networking and communication that have changed the way we conduct our every day lives, they also have the potential to bring everything down.  With that being said, there’s nothing “wrong” with social networking, but balance and priorities are key.  We should never let ourselves get distracted to the point we stray away from our purpose and put our passions to the side.  Because even when we are doing things to help us catapult ourselves onto the fast track of success we’re probably updating our status telling the world about every bit of it.

…so agree to disagree with me, but think twice the next time you tweet or update your status….it gave me a chance to see things from a different perspective.

XOXO